The Hardest Part of Travelling

This piece was not written by myself but I couldn’t have said it better. The words epitomise a strong undercurrent I have been feeling for a while. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, that yearning I still feel five months after completing my trip.

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The Hardest Part of Travelling that No One Talks About by Kellie Donnelley

 

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  1. All so true. Our journeys as teachers of life, love, just being. The one journey that never ends is the one within to meet the Friend and never be alone again. Only to live in gratitude for all that is.

  2. It all depends on how you precieve your travels… No right or wrong way to feel. It what you take away from it! Unless some one has travelled for months, years at a time they can not even imagine what you except! Its all sel learning experiences!!! Happy travels

  3. I have been abroad for almost year and i am coming back home next month. I am worried about how i will feel when i come back, about regretting not trying to stay, I’m worried about wanting to leave again, about being sad that the experience ended rather than being happy that it happened. I don’t know if this experience has changed me, but I miss home, mostly the food, and having friends all around. I feel lonely most of the time here abroad, which is the main reason of not trying to stay, But i hope everything will be back to normal when i go back home and that I will feel changed positively by this experience.

  4. I empathize and I believe that I know where you are coming from. At the same time, I feel that what we love about the traveling is that sense of freedom, the ability to create our own agenda, make our own choices on our own time.
    What you are describing is the sense of Freedom. It is revealed to us through the experience of travel, but I have observed that same phenomenon being at home in familiar settings, with the same community, family, neighbours….
    I have found that what we are seeking is a state of consciousness revealed to us through the ever-fresh unknown of the traveling life is actually something that we need to cultivate from within. Once we connect with our authentic true voice, then we have to create our reality, and bring the expansion that we have embraced into our community, holding the space, and being a living example of the dream. People can, do and want to change. So many make do with and accept the status quo, so when someone has an insight into a greater vision and can translate that into daily life, it is a breath of fresh air, and the love and appreciation grows. That is my finding.

    • Thank you for the follow up post. The first was beautifully written and heart felt . All who have “left a safe harbor ” can relate to every piece and share the same concerns .The desire to always keep front and center that feeling of freedom and adventure. An open mind, wide open and willing heart to greet any obstacle with passion and commitment because you must.
      These are life skills that will serve you well in in any adventure you choose. So whether you decide to continue to travel to far off places or choose to land for a while.,.NEVER,EVER FORGET where you have been and where you are going.
      Every moment is an adventure if YOU choose to live a life of passion 💛

    • I have recently moved to Toronto (the place where I was born and raised) after having lived 17 years abroad, and in my opinion you have hit the nail on the head with your comment Rosalie.
      The time spent living abroad and everything that goes along with it can unlock enormous human potential if we allow it to.

      Great post!

  5. Understandable why people may think this is a complaining article because it offers no solution to this feeling. Although, the author may have not found their solution yet.
    As a former traveller, I understand that an individual’s world perception is capable of changing. The way I solved this issue was to never stop exploring. You sometimes think you know your hometown or the area you grew up in, but there is still so much to experience. I went to a university that was vastly different from my hometown. Going from city life to farmland. I hated the thought of being out in the middle of nowhere, but I began to realize that it was a whole new lifestyle I can experience. There was whole community of people I have never met, food I have never tried, and sights I have never seen. Even now, having a new job, I am eager to explore the surrounding blocks of my building. These are the steps that make the transition of traveling from a fantasy to reality.
    No one should be here to deny the change the author felt within themselves. However, I am here to say that those feelings transform you into a more curious, independent, and forward thinking person. And cheers to that!

  6. This article has changed my life. The truth behind it is unreal. Your words are what I have been feeling and had no way to express them. Well done.

  7. mud can make you prisoner and the plains can make you dry
    snow can burn your eyes but only people make you cry
    home is made for coming from but never going to
    which with any luck will never come true

    • I know the restlessness you speak of and i have learned that it is important to never have one thing to cure resllessness otherwise it just becomes another thing one is dependent on. I have found for me personally that my next frontier was to become comfortable with my uncomfortableness or as you call it restlessness. When you are traveling we expect to have times where we reach out of our comfort zone. it is more unexpected when we return. I have found that is where the real personal work comes in. When my kids tell me they are bored and tell them to get comfortable with boredom. I found it fascinating and life changing to be content with that restless feeling. As you already know travel is so much more than the places you see, the food you try and the people you meet. It is an adventure with in and the adventure need not stop when you are home. At first it is an adjustment especially since it is unexpected but then if you allow it, the everyday can become the adventure too.
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  8. “We travel initially to lose ourselves; and we travel next to find ourselves. We travel to open our hearts and eyes and learn more about the world than our newspapers will accommodate. We travel to bring what little we can, in our ignorance and knowledge, to those parts of the globe where riches are differently dispersed. And we travel, in essence, to become young fools again – to slow time down and get taken in, and to fall in love once more” – Pico Iyer, Why we Travel

  9. Home is where the heart is. I love to travel, but the more I do, the more I realize how special my home is and I only travel now when I need a reminder of how lucky I am to have grown up in such a beautiful town and on such a beautiful farm. For me, there is no place like home!

  10. I really think it’s just your reason for leaving. You don’t leave expecting to come back to something different. You leave knowing the most important change when you’re back is not everyone and everything else, but you.

    Because that’s why you travel in the first place isn’t it? For you and you alone.

    The challenge is to be different where everything to you, seems to have not changed. That’s the beauty of travel, so you can come back and bring something different to your life. Not to entirely escape to something that’s different altogether.

    But everyone has their own purpose of travelling for long periods of time I guess, just my 2cents!

  11. And its worst when you want to run away againg but at the same time you dont want to or you can´t ……. and when people still don´t get that you changed, but at the same time you didn´t.

  12. You penned down what my heart is filled up with.. I so can relate whatever you have written.. So beautifully embellished..

  13. I enjoyed this read, and understand the feelings you are dealing with. I’ve traveled on and off for the last 15 years, and have lived and worked in many countries during that time. And Id also returned home to finally settle into a fixed life afterwards. Sure its frustrating not being able to have people relate to the same type of experiences. But I did also meet a few people who have been abroad for extended periods. Maybe Im lucky because Im from a big city in California, But even if it werent the case, its not like you cant convey some ideas. I mean, while traveling, Im sure you tried to tell people about your home country though most had never visited. And Im sure you clarified misconceptions or ultimately accepted that there were simply some things they couldnt grasp. So its no different trying to do the reverse with the people in your own city.

    As for the addiction of travel, it is like a drug. And I draw this comparison in the most basic way–its about stimulation, a break from the monotonous routine, an elevated sense of being. And like anything else it can be damaging if done too much. Moving from place to place desensitizes a person to some of the important things in life. The connections we have with people become weaker, because the shortened time frame doesnt allow for the depth. And we still tell ourselves that its so much more intense, and meaningful, and that the people are more interesting. So it must somehow be better. But its mostly a lie. A person you met for a few days or weeks can not serve as a substitute for a childhood friend. They cant bring that sense of fulfillment we have when sharing special moments with family. And if you spend too much time going through these short relationships it leads to investing less in others and about more self absorption. Youre the celebrity, the traveler, the one who has so much experience to share, so naturally youre usually the center of attention. But I dont find this healthy either.

    After being away so long I started to crave more normalcy and anonymity. So when the time was right, i did return, and I havent been happier. Ive changed yes. but the knowledge I acquired taught me to appreciate more what I have. I also have a strong sense of self satisfaction knowing what ive done and accomplished. Still, I dont feel like Im better compared to others–as if a person truly hasnt lived till theyve seen the world. to the contrary. travel taught me everyone is good in their own way whatever their background. We all have something to learn and gain from one another. And moreover, we should respect one another and try to identify as best we can. That makes life better for everyone.

    • Thank you for a mature response to a rather immature article. When I first read the main article, I felt more than a little irritated by the ideas expressed. If we are very, very fortunate to be in a position to go travelling and learn from it, one of the most important lessons is that the vast majority of people don’t have that opportunity.
      As for travelling in the sense that the author implies, we should be able to “travel” like that within our own countries and even within our own towns. We have to learn to live in communities, not be forever running away to ‘follow our dream’ or seeking some vague escapist ideal.
      So thank you again for a more balanced approach.

  14. I understand what you are dealing with. I’ve traveled on and off for the last 15 years, and have lived and worked in many countries during that time. And Id also returned home to finally settle into a fixed life afterwards. Sure its frustrating not being able to have people relate to the same type of experiences. But I did also meet a few people who have been abroad for extended periods. Maybe Im lucky because Im from a big city in California, But even if it werent the case, its not like you cant convey some ideas. I mean, while traveling, Im sure you tried to tell people about your home country though most had never visited. And Im sure you clarified misconceptions or ultimately accepted that there were simply some things they couldnt grasp. So its no different trying to do the reverse with the people in your own city.

    As for the addiction of travel, it is like a drug. And I draw this comparison in the most basic way–its about stimulation, a break from the monotonous routine, an elevated sense of being. And like anything else it can be damaging if done too much. Moving from place to place desensitizes a person to some of the important things in life. The connections we have with people become weaker, because the shortened time frame doesnt allow for the depth. And we still tell ourselves that its so much more intense, and meaningful, and that the people are more interesting. So it must somehow be better. But its mostly a lie. A person you met for a few days or weeks can not serve as a substitute for a childhood friend. They cant bring that sense of fulfillment we have when sharing special moments with family. And if you spend too much time going through these short relationships it leads to investing less in others and about more self absorption. Youre the celebrity, the traveler, the one who has so much experience to share, so naturally youre the center of attention. But I dont find this healthy either.

    After being away so long I started to crave more normalcy and anonymity. So when the time was right, i did return, and I havent been happier. Ive changed yes. but the knowledge I acquired taught me to appreciate more what I have. I also have a strong sense of self satisfaction knowing what ive done and accomplished. Still, I dont feel like Im better compared to others–as if a person truly hasnt lived till theyve seen the world. to the contrary. travel has taught me there a million ways to find happiness and meaning in life. Ive seen it in the places ive visited. travel also taught me everyone is good in their own way regardless of their background. We all have something to learn and gain from one another. And moreover, we should respect one another and try to identify as best we can instead of focusing too much on differences. That makes life better for everyone.

  15. I am in my 60,s and have only been travelling for 4 years. However it is only returning home after 6months in China that the feelings described in the article hit me. I was warned, by a fellow traveller friend that I would never completely settle down at home again.
    It’s nothing that can be quantified, seen or understood by those around you at home. So I have kept up contact with fellow travellers and am already planning my next adventure.

  16. This is a fantastic description of what it’s like to reintegrate back into society after spending time abroad. She’s not bitching about the perils of travelling you idiots. The author is expressing how its hard to express youself at home after you’ve gone to see and experience amazing only to return and see nothing has changed on the homefront. How do you explain to your friends and family a new cultural understanding or enlightenment when the hilight of their summer was the same 4th of July party they’ve been attending for years? It’s hard to get excited about a sitcom every week when you were without English speaking TV for the past four months. The haters should try opening their mind and take a trip rather than reigning negativity on this heartfelt blog.

  17. It may also be that you have experienced real living and not what passes for living in many parts of the West anymore. To return home and see the amount of energy wasted on the newest phone or time wasted discussing the newest reality series…sometimes the shallowness is just too painful and you realize for all you may have “given up” while travelling what you gained was a greater love for what is really important: helping others, learning about the world around you, seeing what we have in common as people.

  18. I am 45 and traveled extensively in my 20s. For years i missed it and I recall my then boyfriend (husband now) wanting to go for dinner and a movie. I remembering feeling that it was all so pointless. I took many years off from traveling. During that time I saw myself as traveling with in myself. I guess when you’re a traveler you are a traveler even when you aren’t going any where. I now have a business and married with 3 children. I don’t think I would ever have “settled down” if it weren’t for my travel years. I think now it is much less important for me to be understood by others and these experiences and greater that I have the understanding that I gained from those years. I remember those feelings described in the article. Travel does have these extreme highs and lows and it is like living life on steroids or put in a more positive way…living life fully. But what I have learned since those years is that life can be lived fully right at home. It takes a little more effort to notice all the details, to appreciate a walk in nature around the corner from my home. To appreciate the differences of the people around me. Every stage is a new frontier for me. Traveling alone was one of the greatest experiences. Now traveling with my family (even on “short adventures”) is a new one or finding ways to keep life simple while enjoying what life brings to me or what I go after. Now its more about the depth by being present in the here and now. Every cell in your body is a universe with in itself. Finding the adventure in the everyday is a whole new world to discover.

  19. We’re all on a journey even if we stay based in the same physical location. We might look the same as we did before you went traveling but we’re different too. I haven’t been away much in the last 30 years, but life has made sure that I haven’t stayed in the same place. I’ve tried new things, met knew people, my children have grown and had children of their own. People I have loved have died. I’ve experienced happiness, sorrow excitement and have been inspired by new experiences.
    People I care about have travelled and returned. To them I might seem the same. I can assure them I’m not.

  20. I dont get this. Backpacking for a year taught me that I never have to go home. If you like family you could visit home once every few years and then get right back to backpacking life. Get your mind out of the trap that you have to settle. If you miss some stability work somewhere for 6 months and then move on.

    • I’ve been to 6 different countries. Born in South Africa and moved to Canada with my parents when I was 12. I never really got used to it like my younger brother did. Even in South Africa I felt lost. I’ve been to England, France, USA, the Bahamas, Australia. Unfortunately, this feeling doesn’t get any better. Instead, you learn to get used to it. For me, it has taken a long time because I just craved that sensation of belonging and like that main character on the series “Quantum Leap” it’s never coming back. Like the way mankind has been characterized by how unique we are becoming in the evolutionary scheme of things. Don’t you think it’s interesting that we are to get used to this sense of uniqueness? It’s lonely, but I think we get used to it.

  21. I love that euphoric feeling of travel. It’s unrivalled. I went on an epic round the world trip after graduation, and found it tough to stay still in one place after. So whilst at law school. Travelled to Hawaii 3 times in the space of a year (true story),just to feeL free. Since then, I’ve come to conclude that to fulfill my dreams and ambitions and at the same time not feel trapped by being in one place, my ambitions must give me the same feeling that I get from travel. That feeling of excitement and nerves when you are stepping off the plane to somewhere new for the first time. I think I’ve just about nailed it. In my case that’s helping to build an eco village that will provide jobs and homes in the area (happens to be Scotland). Every day is a new challenge and adventure, and it has the same feeling that travelling gave me.when it’s over, I’m sure I’ll travel again, until the next project. Moral of the story- dream and live so big that it no longer matters where you are! And fulfill those dreams. The moments are waiting everywhere, right at home and away. Xxx

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  23. If you think about it, it’s an opportunity to reexplore your home town as a visitor. It’s a new place, not because it’s changed, but rather because you have changed. You get to see it through different eyes. This may be difficult because your old friends may not understand. Don’t get frustrated with them, share with them your feelings so that they may grow, but also make new friends that are seeing your home town through visitors eyes as well. I’ve found that people that know travel often make the best hosts as the understand what you are going through.

  24. Yup, there are lots of situations that are the same, I went to boarding school, and had this feeling every time I went home. Then there was university where so many local friends didn’t it was just the same as I went traveling. Then if you continue to learn and explore beyond the everyday it is everywhere.

  25. Yup, but there are lots of situations that are the same, I went to boarding school, and had this feeling every time I went home. Then there was university where so many local friends didn’t go, it was just the same as I went traveling in the few times I end home. Then if you continue to learn and explore beyond the everyday it is everywhere all the time.

  26. Excellent post. I can certainly relate to that having travelled pretty much all my adult life — more than 25 years! I am in my home country now but what is home? To me it’s more a feeling than anything.

    Having travelled as much as I have and continuing to remain a nomad of sorts, I also write about travelling. Here’s one that goes into how travelling makes you lose yourself and find more and more about yourself and realise there really can be no end to that because, the more you travel, the more you realise there must be more to see and experience!

    http://www.dorjegurung.com/blog/2015/06/in-the-search-is-the-discovery-and-the-loss/

  27. Wild D
    I agree that home is where the heart is. I am 62 today & a lifelong lover of travel. There are times when your travels are shorter& closer to home or with children or alone. If you keep seeking new sights, sounds, tastes, and friends and try to make all interactions meaningful your heart will full and warm.

    • I have a girlfriend, that I care a lot, who is leaving today for a few weeks.. While talking to her she was already talking about her next trip. Now I understand why.
      Thanks for sharing.

  28. I understand this view point but don’t you think it’s a but narcissistic?
    People are not in the minority if they travel somewhere foreign these days. Even the most sheltered and catered people I know have managed to get themselves on a plane to Mexico, Costa, Bali… You name it and that person that can barely get thru life in their home town has made it half way around the world. I think it’s great because traveling really does open your mind, allow a freedom you can’t experience in your “comfort zone” and force a new perspective. However, for someone to come home and start feeling like they are the only ones in the world that understand that feeling and that you are the only person that has evolved since you left… Haha! Pretty funny! Maybe instead of sitting around wondering why people aren’t still asking you about the trip you could apply those changes to your new situation. Live a better life than you were for yourself! You don’t need everyone to understand you and your experiences. Appreciate the time you had to learn and make sure you don’t let that new spirit inside slip away and than move forward.
    I guess what I am saying is it was your experience, others had different experiences while you were gone and it’s extremely funny to me that ppl. come home from a trip thinking they are the only person around them that has this new train of thought. Maybe you want to try asking them about their last trip or something in their life and you will learn that your traveled brain is t the only one out there.
    😉Just a thought.

  29. Just my 2cents…..I have traveled and lived all over for the past 20 years. The part that I have the hardest time with when coming back home, is that you/I have changed but everyone back home is still for the most part in the same place as I left them. I feel like my world has expanded and I want to share but I find that my family just does not get me anymore. So, I constantly find myself reaching out to others that are like me, as I no longer fit into the mold prior to me leaving. I find that my mind is so expansive and I want to share but my family just wants to go to the dollar store for fun, and I want them to feel/see what I feel. I am not saying there is anything wrong with this, but change is constant and I crave that change…….

  30. True, but what do you expect people to do? They have been building community together and you haven’t. Yes, you have changed. Have you thought about asking yourself if you’ve remembered to see if they have? Change doesn’t require travel. Having lived life on both sides, I can say I’ve changed doing both.

  31. I guess I’m supposed to introduce my chops first so that people will take into account what I have to say 😛 I have been someone that has changed house, job and country every year for over a decade. “Expertise” now established in the field of traveler/coming-homer.

    I thought maybe this article would deal with the pains of travel that people never talk about. The depression, the hurt, the complete horrors that can happen, but instead it is simply an article of return and revolution.

    I find I am caught in the middle in terms of home. I do feel like nothing has changed when I go home…but that is why I go home. Every year I find my way back to that house on the lakefront with my parents. It is my centre. The place where I go to settle myself. To relax. To remember who I am as I spin round and round in this world. It is the order to the chaos. The rock that I can always count on. I have no one but family there. Everyone I knew has moved on from small town to other places in search of better whatevers, so there is nowhere to worry about belonging. There is no one to worry about in terms of change or unchange. Just the calm. And then I leave into the storm once more.

    For those that are resettling. I was always one opposed. Turned down multiple engagements cause “settling” wasn’t for me. Now, I feel settling is the next great adventure. The only thing I haven’t tried and honestly I am looking forward to the time when I can say “I live here” and mean it.

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  33. This is so true it hurts.
    You leave your comfort zone, friends and family, and move away. You reach your planned destination and everything is new and often strange. But in the novelty you find out about yourself details you never knew you had. You grow. You develop new perspectives. And you feel your mind opening up. You move again. Same thing happens. But this time you feel you are one step above yet again. It is as if your thirst has made thirstier and the water you drank was not enough. You travel, you know new people, new ways of life, new thinking assaults you and this feeds on itself. You want more.
    Then, one day, you decide, for some reason or another to go back home. Only to find there is no home there. There is. But you do not fit in. Your mind and your heart have changed. They are bigger, they are better, and you realize how much you love that ‘new you’ you just discovered. And you feel the need to keep feeding it so it does not wither and regress.
    And it is so true it actually hurts.

  34. This is so true it hurts.
    You leave your comfort zone, friends and family, and move away. You reach your planned destination and everything is new and often strange. Scary at times. But in the novelty you find out about yourself details you never knew you had. You grow. You overcome your fears. You develop new perspectives. And you feel your mind opening up. You move again. Same thing happens. But this time you feel you are one step above yet again. It is as if your thirst has made thirstier and the water you drank was not enough. You travel, you meet new people, new ways of life, new ways of thinking assault you and this feeds on itself. You want more.
    Then, one day, you decide, for some reason or another to go back home. You are eager to review dear ones. Places you loved and missed. But only to find there is no home there. There is. But you do not fit in anymore. Your mind and your heart have changed. They are bigger, they are better. And then you realize how much you love that ‘new you’ you have become. And you feel the need to keep feeding it so that it does not wither or regress. But there is no fear. You are a new you and there is no going back. You do speak a new language.
    And it is so true it actually hurts.

  35. Everything you need to know about the author is in this line:

    “You’re Hollywood for the first few weeks back and it’s all new and exciting. And then it all just…goes away. Everyone gets used to you being home,”

    So as soon as people start treating you normally rather than the centre of attention you get depressed. Why would you even want that? I like my friends treating me normally, I’d hate it if they were weird around me when I got back, it’d mean we’d lost something of our friendship. It sounds like someone needs to travel so that they are constantly new and always getting attention every time they get tio a new place. That is a terrible reason to travel.

    And then there’s lines like:
    “there’s no way to describe the way your spirit evolves when you leave everything you know behind and force yourself to use your brain in a real capacity, not on a written test in school.”

    Seriously? This self perpetuated myth that there is something increidbly hard or brave about travelling needs to stop. I have travelled around the world twice, lived in three different countries, and let me assure anyone reading this who hasn’t travlled, it’s complete crap. Travelling is freedom, lack of responsibility, not having to get up in the morning for work. It is NOT hard. And doesn’t take much brain power. And who wouldn’t choose to travel over more tests? Seriously if you really think youre pushing the boundaries by travelling, it’s time to grow up a bit. And I honestly beg you to read some of the more scpetical comments here and consider them, don’t just dismiss them because they don’t sit with your world view. That seems to be an issue, dimissal of people who don’t have the same outlook, including your own friends. That’s something you could work on if you really want to grow, just a suggestion. The people will see you as a genuinely interesting, empathetic person who’s mind has grown to include consideration of the experiences of others, rather than a brag.

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  37. YES!!!!!!!! Our hearts and our minds are forever expanded – they key is to share that expansion, feed it while HOME, and help other’s develop the sense of leaving, adventure, expansion, and appreciation for the world and all of its people:)

  38. It doesn’t matter if you’ve been traveling for a year or left your hometown to move to another country. The feeling when you return is basically the same. Even though everything has changed you in a positive way…
    Thank you for your true and honest words.

  39. I travelled for over 5yrs to over 40 countries and experience countless good and bad situations. My eyes were opened in a whole new level. But when I got home I totally felt the same. Until now I feel lost because they all expect me to settle back in my old life back home and respest my culture. My culture is great but after travelling, my life was completely changed. For others these changes are not accepted where I live now. Now it seems like I was the one who turned bad. No one understands how I see things now, understand things, value things, appreciate things, and handle things. This is the down side of travelling. But this does not mean I need to change. I can adjust but not change bacause I am already changed. Who I am now is the result of my years of travelling and I have mo regret to that because I know I changed for good 🙂

  40. I understand totally-I spent nearly 4 years in China teaching English and only returned 6 years ago because of the birth of my 1st grandchild. I can only go on short holidays now because I can’t leave her or the other 3 that have been born since. It has been killing me but I am starting to teach English again this week volunteering 1 day at my local Buddhist temple and boy am I excited. I also find that when I meet a fellow traveller at a gathering we tend to pull away from the crowd and spend all night reminiscing.

    • I also find that when I meet a fellow traveler at a gathering we tend to pull away from the crowd and spend all night reminiscing. Isn’t that the truth! A breath of fresh air, isn’t it?

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